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“Everything interests me, but nothing holds me.”

Ah man when a quote you read stays in your mind for a while I guess that means you can relate to it . I haven't find something that Im truly passionate about to the point that I'd like to dedicate my time and efforts into making it my career in the future . Lets say I'm into drawing/making art then I'll work my way into being a professional artist ,  taking pictures then a photographer  ... yeah you get what I mean .
I was sure my interests was in photography . I mean I bought my first dslr with my own money when I was 13 , even attended a class for it which was a total waste of freaking time and effort wow I don't want to talk about that . Anyway as the years pass by my passion for it started to fade away and I really couldn't see myself taking pictures as a long time career or a hobby I'd tend to religiously . I still take pictures now and then but only when I have the mood . The last set of photos I took and was very satisfied + happy with how it turn out are the photos I took in Italy  .

Well I want to learn a lot of things , I want to learn how to play the bass , plant my own vegetable garden , make furniture ( im serious ) . And I actually can if I want to its just that I don't have enough passion for it so there's no drive for me to really pursue it ?! Plus I dont think my parents would want to pay for my bass and furniture making lessons right now . do you see my problem ?!  I'll wait a few more years when I can support myself financially so I can pay for all my shit . Who cares man I'm buying a bass when I'm 25 and watch tutorials on youtube all day and night , buy wood and tools , all the necessary fix to make furniture and I'll make cute chairs and tables with all ikea vibes . Ohnow I realize one more thing that is stopping me from pursuing all of those things , I don't want to trouble my parents to support my interests financially because lets face it all of these need money right yeah whatever who says money can't buy happiness . It buys the source and materials you need that is the freaking base of your happiness . 

For example , you want to travel around the world ? Its on your bucket list and it'll make you out of the world happy ? You need money to buy the airplane tickets and everything wah omg goodnight frustrated now .